What is it like....?

Everyone has trials, times in their lives that they wish hadn't happened. Everyone's issues are unique and important. I understand that, but sometimes there are those days. This morning on my way to work someone spoke on the radio about how he was thankful for the difficult times because it revealed God. My first reaction was really???? I could do without all the trials. Then I started thinking how different I am because of what I have been through. I also thought about how close Rob and I are and how our faith has gotten stronger. There are times when I wish people in my life could walk in my shoes for one day and really understand my life and the trials I face. People say and do things that hurt my feeling even though they did not mean to or even know. People try to comfort me and say things without having any idea about what I am really thinking or feeling. I get it, I am high maintenance and it can not be easy to have me and my trials in your life. How do you deal with someone who ALWAYS seems to have some sort of drama happening? That I can not answer because I am just doing my best to stay afloat and do what is best for my children. I am far from perfect and have made many mistakes in my life. I do not pretend to have all the answers and have so much to learn. My feelings are mixed. I am grateful for the person I have become these last few years and a lot of it is from surviving what I deal with everyday. Yet sometimes I wish my trials were not so BIG! What is it like to have healthy kids that do not have to take boat loads of medication to stay alert? What is it like to get more that 5 hours sleep in a night? What is it like to go to the store or out to dinner with your family without a complete hysetrical, violent meltdown happening? What is it like..........?